MY BEAUTY QUEST

This section of my blog explains my own personal "quest" in discovering what truly makes someone beautiful. Below I will share some of the experiences that led me to creating BE WISE and having the desire to share my thoughts on beauty with others. Throughout this blog I will write "BEAUTY" posts. These posts will reflect my feelings on true beauty as well as occasionally share a few of my favorite beauty products. I believe that just as it is important to know you are beautiful, it is also important to feel beautiful and take care of the bodies we have been blessed with. 
Golden and sun-kissed skin with Shirley Temple curls, I was as confident as any young girl could be. I knew who I was. I was a daughter of God, and therefore, I was beautiful. 
Years passed and this young carefree girl became aware; aware of the pressures and insecurities that society throws at us. I'm not exactly sure when it all happened but somehow the world got to me and the advertising companies won. Commercials, billboards, magazines, you name it.. I was being assaulted by their expectations of beauty and feelings of inadequacy. Somehow I was convinced that no matter how pretty I was, it simply wasn't enough. My hair wasn't "just right" and my skin was far too white.   
I destroyed my Shirley Temple curls; literally destroyed. I used every product and straightener I could get my hands on. I even for a time actually ironed my hair - with a household iron. I would kneel by the ironing board and have whoever was willing, iron out every curl. 
Now on to my skin. I naturally have an olive skin tone - I am white but always tanned easily. As a kid I spent my days outside and ended up looking golden and tan. The older I got the less time I spent outside so I "needed" to find other ways to achieve that sun-kissed glow.  It started with lotions and self-tanners. I was a smelly, sticky, orange mess. Not to mention all the clothes that were permanently ruined in my attempt to be tan. I began realizing how impractical this was. Unfortunately the quest to be tan did not end there. I turned to tanning beds. It was great. In just 15 minutes I could fry myself enough to look like I had just returned from an exotic tropical vacation. 
I didn't make the connection until years later but it was also during this time that I began wearing more revealing and less-modest clothing. After all, how else would everyone see my super tan legs? 

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Now fast-forward a few years later to where I am now. No longer wearing my short shorts, I've finally let my curls do their thing, and my skin is still as white as can be from the winter, but I am more confident than I have ever been before.   
So what changed? 
I'm still constantly bombarded by societies lies and expectations... I still have my own insecurities just like anyone else... but I finally remembered who I am. 
I am a daughter of God and therefore, I am beautiful. 
I realized that by simply buying into (literally buying... I don't even want to think about how much money I spent in my vain attempt to be tan) I was sinning. I was being ungrateful for all that God has blessed me with. I have a body that can do unbelievable things. (And so do you!) I was allowing myself to fall prey to the ultimate body destroyer. Satan will never have what I have and he covets my mortal body, flaws and all. He is doing all he can to destroy my body, and by allowing him to convince me that what I had wasn't good enough, he won. 
There were many events that took place that led me to this point, more than I would like to admit. But finally, for the most part, I stopped giving in to societies (or to trace it back to the real source - Satan's) lies and expectations.  
Instead of constantly trying to change what I have, I focus more on taking care of what I have been blessed with. I still occasionally straighten my hair (not with a household iron). However, majority of the time I try to keep it as natural as I can. I quit tanning and came to the realization that it's OKAY to be white. In fact, it's beautiful. Why wouldn't I want to be exactly how God created me to be? He doesn't make mistakes and He didn't make one with my skin either.   

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N E W S F L A S H : Satan hates you, he wants to destroy you, and he is never going to give up. His best tactic in destroying you will be by first making you dislike your body and appearance. He wants you to forget who you are and lose sight of your worth as a child of God. If he can accomplish this, then he wins. DON'T LET HIM WIN.  
You, my dear friend, are a child of God. You were created exactly how He wanted you to be and He doesn't make mistakes. 
You are a child of God and therefore you are beautiful.